Becoming Your Authentic Self After Emotional Abuse
- Deborah Ann Martin
- Jul 11
- 3 min read
You are not who they said you were. You are who you decide to become.
Emotional abuse doesn’t just hurt in the moment—it reshapes how we see ourselves long after the abuser is gone. It teaches us to shrink. To perform. To apologize for existing. We spend so much time surviving that we forget how to simply be.
But healing isn’t just about leaving the pain behind—it’s about discovering the version of yourself that was buried beneath it. The real you. The free you. The authentic you.
This final post in our emotional abuse series is about that journey. About stepping into your truth, even if it shakes. About rewriting your story, even if the first chapters were written in pain. And about becoming someone you genuinely like, respect, and care for—you..
What Is the “Authentic Self”?
Your authentic self is the version of you that exists without fear, performance, or apology.
It’s not the one molded by someone else’s expectations.
It’s not the one you became to survive your childhood or relationships.
It’s not the people-pleaser, the peacekeeper, the fixer, or the invisible one.
It’s the you who knows what you like.
Who says what you feel.
Who chooses what you need.
Who honors your values, even when no one else understands them.
Why Emotional Abuse Disconnects Us from Ourselves
If you’ve experienced emotional abuse, you’ve likely been:
Told what to think
Shamed for how you feel
Ignored when you needed comfort
Blamed for other people’s choices
Taught to question your own voice
That’s not just abuse of your emotions—it’s abuse of your identity.
You become a version of yourself designed to survive, not thrive. You adjust to avoid punishment. You edit yourself to be lovable. And eventually, you forget what’s real and what’s a mask.
My Story: I Didn’t Know Who I Was Without the Hurt
For most of my life, I was who others needed me to be. A good daughter. A submissive wife. A sacrificial mother. A peacekeeper.
When my husband left for the last time, I realized I didn’t just lose a relationship—I lost my entire identity. Everything I had built was centered around keeping someone else happy. When that person was gone, what was left?
It’s taken me years to figure that out. I’m still figuring it out. But every time I make a decision based on my peace, not someone else’s preference, I come home to myself.
That’s the work. That’s the win. And that’s what I want for you.
How to Begin Becoming Your Authentic Self
This isn’t about a personality makeover. It’s about removing what never belonged to begin with.
Here’s how you start:
1. Get Curious About Your Choices
Ask yourself:
Do I actually enjoy this, or have I just always done it?
Am I saying “yes” out of guilt or genuine desire?
Is this something I value, or something I was told to value?
2. Give Yourself Permission to Want More
You’re allowed to want peace. Joy. Fulfillment. Stillness. Passion.Not just survival. Not just the bare minimum.
3. Make Decisions That Feel True, Not Just Safe
The authentic self doesn’t always choose comfort. It chooses truth. Start small: pick the meal you actually want. Use the words, "I choose." Say what you actually feel. Rest when you need to—not when it's convenient for others.
4. Reclaim Your Voice
Speak up—first in private, then in public. Try: “I’m not okay with that.”Or: “That doesn’t work for me.”Or even: “I’m still figuring out what I need.”
Every word is a homecoming.
Support on Your Journey
Becoming your authentic self after emotional abuse is not a quick transformation—it’s a lifelong return to who you were always meant to be.
If you need a safe space to sort out what’s you and what’s programming, Neighbor Talk Coaching is for you. You don’t need a plan. You just need a place to process. I’ll walk with you as you rediscover your voice, your needs, and your identity.
[Book a Neighbor Talk Session – You don’t have to figure this out alone.]
Healing & Journaling Tool: “Who Am I Without the Pain?”
Prompt: Explore who you are when you’re not trying to survive or please anyone else.
What parts of yourself were silenced, hidden, or dismissed in your past?
What brings you peace or joy, on your terms?
What does your most authentic life look and feel like?
What’s one truth you’ve discovered about yourself lately?
(This prompt will be saved to your journaling doc.)
You Are the Person You’ve Been Waiting to Become
You are not broken. You are becoming. You are allowed to exist fully, speak honestly, feel deeply, and walk freely.
You are not your past. You are your potential, finally set free.
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